The duality that the wicked are punished and the just are rewarded is evident in prayer. When a child misbehaves then he or she should be punished. Hopefully, the punishment fits the deed. Maybe they have to give up cookies for a week for not cleaning up their room. If we as God’s children misbehave by sinning then we are punished. I can’t help wondering what sin I committed that God did not answer my prayers to spare my daughter’s life. It’s a matter of faith; it’s a matter of faith.
It is often said that “The Lord answers all prayers, but sometimes the answer is ‘No’.” God answered Elijah’s prayers for dry weather then rain because it suited His overall plans, not just Elijah’s plans. It suited the Lord to take my daughter to Heaven. The answer to my prayers was clearly “No.” But my pleas for some comfort and strength to bear the burden were answered a resounding “Yes!” The ways of our Father are mysterious indeed (pun intended). But He does have our best interests in mind if we are dutiful and obedient children.
So I still wonder ...
The text above is adapted from my Bible study preparation. I've found that the process is very introspective. We have God's word in print (though translated countless times), but His real meaning comes from within us. I have the answer to my speculation right here. I know it. I feel it. Now if only God will say "Yes" when I ask to have it revealed.