Musings in Search of a Muse

Another day of In-School Discipline. Once again boredom means lots of posts. Nothing in the newspaper worth writing about and I finished all the bills that I brought to work on. It turns out I hadn’t balanced my checkbook since somewhere around March so I don’t know exactly how much money I have despite using MS Money and downloading statements regularly. I might have to try Quicken or go back to doing things by hand. I don’t really see any advantage to tracking my finances on the computer. It would help if I checked my mail more than once every few weeks. Then I’d keep up with my bills and I wouldn’t have late charges messing up my calculations.

Talk about discipline. That’s something I definitely lack, especially at home. When I’m at home I don’t feel like doing anything other than sit on a floor pillow and surf the Web while watching TV. Everything else is a chore -- Cleaning, folding laundry, doing dishes, and taking the trash out to be sure, but also taking a shower, cooking, and everything else, too.

I’d much rather do these things for others. Last night I was at my friend’s house helping to pickup toys, clearing the dinner table, putting dishes in the dishwasher and other things I wouldn’t do around my own house. Part of our Bible study focused on our gifts that we can share through ministry and it was determined by others that being a nice guy and being hospitable were my gifts. That may or may not be true – I’m not a good judge – but the key is that I’m that way with others, not with myself. We are supposed to love ourselves the way we love God and then lover others as we love ourselves, but I find that I love God and others more than I love myself. Strange. Certainly something to ponder to and pray about.